AHhh.
Its been some time since I've really been on here, let alone typed anything in my little journal of goodness.
Halloween is just a few days away. I'm so excited. I didn't get to have all the halloween fun last year, since I was working.

I haven't drawn, painted or really done much of anything artistic in over a year, but then I carved my pumpkin today. And I'm pretty happy with it. Would have been nice if I had carving tools, and not primitive sharpe objects laying around the house. I was tempted to use power tools, but I thought that if they got full of pumpkin goo I'd be in trouble > heh heh.

Anyways, carving it today, made me feel good. Like I made something. I've been in a strange place as of the last while. I'm not really sure where it began, but I've felt less like myself in many ways. Not drawing is one of them.

But I'm trying to find new ways, new "me's" to follow and form. I was pretty negative and down about not feeling like I usually do, but I had something of an epiphany as of recently without knowing it. I just woke up, decided to quit a certain bad habit, and start going back to the gym. And she said, Now is not the time for the slugs. NOW is the time for coley.
When Im old and grey, the slugs will rule. I felt like I've been decaying for a long time. Decaying in my paranoia and negative discomforts I surround myself in.
Tired of that scene, so its time for change.

Not that this means much of anything, to anyone, but soon I'll start creating again, once I find it......once I find itttt.